Lately, I’ve been thinking and talking a lot about the onion-like nature of being a human being. I think I emerged from high school believing that I would grow, acquire skills and basically build myself up to become the person I was designed to be. I did graduate from university, begin a professional career, have children, help grow a business, etc. – there was a lot of self-construction going on there. But I have begun to realize that growing up is not all about acquiring, growing and building yourself into your identity. There is some deconstruction that is essential to the process as well.
As I am now in my late thirties, I find that I spend a lot of time unpacking myself. Who am I at the core? What is important? Whom do I want to be? What do I have control over changing and what is completely outside of my influence? Now it seems that I am peeling back the layers of the onion to really discover rather than create myself.
I think that my fascination with this stage self-discovery is part of the reason I love boudoir. Boudoir is all about shedding layers – in so many ways. The exercise of pushing yourself past your age-old insecurities and becoming vulnerable is an act of self-discovery. And then, as you peel away each of your layers (figuratively speaking), you find that there is something else below it to discover.
Here are some beautiful photographs of a lovely woman who did a boudoir shoot with us a few years ago before she had her son, and then another one recently. She has definitely constructed another piece of herself, as well as peeled away a layer in this new chapter in her life. Thanks so much to J for letting us share her photos!